Joy in Difficulty

It's 3:38am and this is the only time I have free to blog.  The baby's had her second feeding of the night, I just wolfed down a snack of fruit leather, water and a LaraBar, and I'm about to change out of my milk-soaked pajama top.  I have to say, I didn't really imagine having a second child was going to be this difficult.

My oldest is testing every boundary possible - from pooping in her nighttime pull-up (the only time, by the way, that she doesn't wear panties now) to ignoring my direct orders when we're in public, she's making difficulties out of situations that didn't before require much attention.  This baby wakes every 2 to 2 and a half hours for feeding.  My lack of continuous sleep has allowed my allergies to rage out of control despite my continued use of herbs and vitamins (which used to work).  This sinus infection has ruined my appetite, lessened my milk supply (only somewhat), and sapped what little patience I once had with my toddler.  I long to do little, useful projects, but never seem to find the time and free hands.  A season of difficulties is upon me.

But I also didn't imagine having a second child was going to be this easy.  And rewarding!  My oldest doesn't act one bit jealous around her little sister, but always wants to hold her and kiss her head.  Our friends at our church have supplied a continuous stream of dinners since the day the baby was born.  I've been able to share Olivia's birth story and my sadness over not having Liam with many friends, and receive love and support from them.  Instead of being tired and groggy, my husband has been both supportive and productive - he's almost finished making a 10' long dining room table so we can have more fellowship and community!  Olivia is the cuddliest, easiest baby.  She is such a joy in the way she's already practicing holding her head up and staring into your eyes like she has years of wisdom in her little heart.  She nurses quickly and rarely spits up.  Our friends have supplied us with tons of new, beautiful baby girl clothes for her.

So in the midst of what could be a really frustrating season for me, I can't help but have joy.  God is so good, and His mercies are new each morning!  Great is His faithfulness!